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(Inspired by Alan Kaufman’s “The Saddest Man on Earth”)

 

“The saddest man on Earth

Ignored how the rain felt as he left home for the first time.”

He let the rain dowse his clothes, dragging it to the ground

Like the sadness that dragged his heart into darkness.

He reflected on all that ate away at his heart

Until all that was left was a heavy weight at his core.

The rain would never be as chilling as the deaths

That haunted him into delirium at night.

The road would never be as lonely as the gray walls

That kept him in his room of solitude at 11:59 pm, New Year’s Eve.

The house never as empty as his hopes for mankind.

The fresh, open wounds never as as hurtful as the truths

That had stabbed his mind over the years.

The Ophelias never as despairingly beautiful

As the lies that drowned in his blood.

The abyss never as hollow as the hole in him

That was filled with misery,

That seeped in his veins and every atom in him.

The paintings never as aesthetically pleasing

As the cloud of self-loathe and sorrow

That man takes shelter in and calls home.

“The saddest man on Earth

Ignored how the rain felt as he left home for the last time.”

 

(Written ~April 2016; Revised 1.3.19)

Apple of My Eye

The apple of my eye

Has left me blind

And the rotting fruit

Has poisoned me to the root.

Now the fruit flies are caged within my lungs

And your words sound bitter on my tongue.

Through different eyes, I see my hopes have decayed

And in me the reality has weighed:

The apple of my eye is now a shriveled, perished, mush

So to survive, out of me it must be flushed.

 

(Revised 3.11.17)

Everything Beautiful is Far Away

I sat and peered at the stars twinkling in the ebony sky,

Appreciating their light-years long beauty as they decay.

I ponder how dying stars in space still shine so bright

While dying stars on earth dimmer and become gray.

Our bodies become lifeless as time swallows our glow,

But as we lose our light we see the light, they say.

Forth to the heavens, or space to join the stars

because everything beautiful is far away.

 

(Written 2.23.17)